I woke at 3:30 am to my own voice saying, “Patty, get up and type” and I have learned not to fight these late night/early morning rambles. I could choose to stay under the covers, try to go back to sleep, but I know this little whisper I hear urging me to get up will only get louder. So, I choose to go with the flow
( get up) and see what insight comes out of it.
The dominant message that has turned from a whisper to more of a shout is, “ Go with the flow.”
Many of us say we should just “try” to go with the flow, but going with the flow of life isn’t always so easy. The rebellious voice in my head shouts out, Damn straight!
I envision the metaphor of me in the river tube or row boat flowing downstream. Is it really easy to just flow in this way?
I don’t wanna go with this flow, why can’t I direct it to the left instead fo the right! This waters moving a little too fast, I want to slow it down and see the trees along the bank! Now this water is moving too slow and I ‘ll never get to my destination! There’s sticks and rocks, twists and turns.
I suppose if I could get myself into a place of trust, then going with the flow of where life takes me would be easy. “Just be.” I admit that I have experienced glimpses of this feeling place of releasing my need to control. Life is pretty delicious when I can be this allowing and not worry about the future.
But many times I just don’t like whats a flowin” my way either. There are people I don’t get along with. People who I feel frustrated or sad being around. There are situations I might not enjoy being in. Things I feel I have to do that I don’t want to do. Places I feel I have to be, people I feel I have to see! This action of going with the flow is not always easy, especially when I really don’t want to.
I seem to be stuck on this message of going with the flow. There has been something knawing at me for the last hour about the nature of “going with the flow” I want to shut down my laptop and lay back down under the covers, it’s 5 am, dark and quiet and my pillow is inviting my head upon it. My own voice won’t let me though. There is more, I know it!
What if going with the flow is more than going with the external things in life that happen? What if going with the flow is also an internal thing?
Patty, go with the flow of your emotions! Let them flow.
hmm Just go with the flow…
I feel happy, I feel mad. I feel sad. I feel vulnerable. I feel excited. I feel love. I feel afraid. I feel any emotion in any moment. No emotion is right, wrong, good or bad. Just let them flow. Some emotions might not feel so good, but ignoring or pretending they don’t exist now THAT is a struggle, and your emotions always linger under the surface anyway, your body feels them even if you pretend with your mind that you don’t. Let go of what should and should not be as far as you feel.
Accept your emotions, that is going with the flow, no matter what that flow is.
I can feel a certain empowerment to this kind of going with the flow. I feel what I feel, you feel what you feel, and it is all OK.
I think I’m going to have to come up with a different visual ( than a boat downstream) for going with the flow of my emotions.