I’ve been silent here at the Share Your Love Story blog for about three months. I’ve had no words, but oh I’ve had plenty of emotions and negative thoughts after the closure of the business I had been trying to build since 2009.
I knew that acknowledging my failure would bring much for me to process. This was both expected and much needed.
The feeling of failure at anything, brings self judgment, and for the last 3 months I certainly have been processing my share. I couldn’t quite wrap my mind around the fact that I had failed at doing something that I loved, and yet, what I was doing wasn’t working…
….and so I stepped back.
All of the “You’re not good enoughs and not smart enoughs” bubbled up to the surface, and I let them, I felt them.
I swam through them and brought myself to a clearer place where I was open to new decisions, and new paths I never saw before. It’s a new journey I will share in future blogs.
Today I want to talk about judgement, since I have spent the last 3 months working through my own.
I was sparked by a picture that I saw on FB. It’s a humorous caption about bad grammar. I know many people can relate to this photo because it isn’t the first time I have heard people annoyed or joking about bad grammar. I’ll admit that I have cringed when their and there is used improperly.
If anything triggers you or me THAT much it’s time to look within.
Bad grammar is no exception. We laugh and we giggle when someone uses hear and here in the wrong context, maybe you cringe, maybe you think to yourself how stupid the person is, maybe you can’t help but to correct them. Maybe you are one of the grammar police.
I’ve played my part. I’m no exception. I’ve also had private messages about my own posts.
Here is what I realize:
Judgment is judgment
Triggers are triggers.
Maybe what is behind this annoying grammar photo is YOUR or MY own fear of not being good enough, a FEAR of being stupid. A need to feel superior to someone else. Feel what you choose to from this.
But if you are annoyed with my shitty grammar,(I’m posting without spell check or proofreading) I’m glad to have played the part to help you release some of your own judgment. If you feel the need to message me about something that I spelled wrong, my sprit will thank you for helping me to release the feeling of not being good or smart enough too :-)
With Love and Fireworks,