Conceived in 2008, I once called Arabella my baby. Today, however I filed the FINAL tax return; Arabella LLC, once a business and a dream is done.

Am I sad about it? Not really. Letting go felt natural. Arabella merely existed on life support for some time now, signing those final papers is like pulling a plug. I’ve had time to adjust to the situation, and to reflect on it.

Dreams and businesses have life-force and energy, and Arabella had hers.

But what once felt like such a match to me, had changed. That giant YES feeling was gone; for a while this was hard to face. The very fact that it was hard for me to admit made me want to dig deeper into myself.

What I once knew to my core was going to be such a success…..had failed.

And there it is, the word: failure.

I become so aware of how we all seek to avoid this word. Yet, the minute I signed those papers, and accepted and said out loud, “I failed.” I felt a sense of relief.

Why is it that we feel we need to hold on even when things aren’t working? Why is it that we are bombarded with affirmations of “Never give up!” The insight I got from my own experience is all about my own belief system around FAILURE.

It doesn’t matter how logical or spiritual I am, it doesn’t matter how much I know, my beliefs about failing and failure run deep, and they are beliefs that don’t serve me. Acknowledging this helps me to change.

The ingrained belief that to admit “I failed.” is bad, is so far from the truth! I know this because my BODY doesn’t lie; when I finally surrendered to the failure of Arabella, I felt relief….not sadness. I felt promise for the future, not doomed. I felt ease, not difficulty.

Sometimes you have to let something die, whether that be an idea, a business, or even a relationship, so that you can bring NEW life to something else. It helps you  move forward and flow, rather than to be stuck. To succeed, you just might have to fail.

Holding onto the belief that failure is BAD, will never let you do this or at least it will drag out the process.

There are just too many things I want to experience to drag out the process. So here I am today, telling you “I failed.” RIP Arabella LLC. I’m minus any knots in my stomach or judgments around it. In fact, I feel a flow of energy running through me; I feel a new openness. I’m not sure what this will bring, but I ‘m excited to find out!

Sometimes it takes a “death” for something new to be re-born; the death of an idea, of a relationship, of a business, of a way of thinking, or a way of doing things.

And, like a funeral there is a period of mourning, a feeling of loss for what WAS. A loss of comfort.

And then it happens.
resolution. acceptance. a NEW knowing. a sense of relief.

You’ve pushed yourself through what was COMFORTABLE. You’ve let go, you’ve opened yourself.

And that first tingle of excitement for the new that is coming emerges… ♥

With Love & Fireworks,

Patty