I recently came across a dating personal ad I wrote four years ago, in the summer of 2008. To clarify, this was an Energetic Personal Ad, meant to be posted to the Universe. This was an exercise I did for a Spiritual Forum that I participated with.
The intention was for me to express and align with my desires. I was definitely searching at the time, or as many of us go through, I had deep recognition that something was missing in my life.
At the time, these words were my clearest expression of who and what I wanted in my relationship. It was my clearest expression of who I was, my desires, the experiences that would make my soul sing, and my depiction of who many of us women tend to describe….the ONE, and it was all rolled up into a neat little paragraph.
Four years later, I can look back on this and say in the most positive of ways….
Energetic personal ads are damn powerful……so beware!!
They are life changing when that energy aligns.
Here is the personal ad from 2008:
Are You This Man??
Do you want a partner? Do you want an equal to experience this fucking ride we call life. Do you like jumping into the ocean even if it is too cold? Do you like long soft kisses? Do you like to play and be spontaneous. Are you sensual? Do you like to take your time, make love all night..and then sometimes do you just have to have me.right there and then. Where ever we might be? Do you appreciate a woman who is sexually open, who loves her body, who loves sex, who can talk about sex? Are you able to be sensitive when you need to be..to comfort and not be a doer all of the time. Can you open up to me. Can you show your emotions and not have defenses with me. Do you cook? Will you cook for me and find pleasure in cooking for me.? Will you accept my comfort and support but NOT need it. Will you find me interesting, and want to hear what I have to say? Do you like to feel me sleeping next to you. Will you hold my hand? Do you have a healthy fit body? Do you enjoy all of your senses. Will you dance with me and twirl me around. Do you like to laugh and be silly. Have you left your baggage behind. Are you ready for all that this life has to offer. Will you love me with out judgment. Will you make me feel safe simply because I can be myself with you. Are you a dreamer? Do you believe dreams come true? Will you make me melt when you kiss me?
I f you feel like YOU are this MAN…you are the greatest love of my life. Are YOU that man?
Within two months of posting this to the Universe, my 20+ year relationship came to an end, not that it wasn’t rocky already, but life changed at warp speed, and I embarked on a thrilling yet scary adventure.
A dive off of a cliff, into the unknown with only my TRUST as a parachute. Good and not so good experiences unfolded.
I moved. Quit the only job I had known for 10 years. Met up with a man in NYC ( I’d known only through Skype) who had flown across the Atlantic just to finally meet me in person. At 45 finally got that passport and travelled to a new country. Embarked on writing a book. Started a business.
My life in one word: whirlwind.
It was a hit and miss, trial and error, and continual personal releases for me. It was me, dealing with my shit; tears and laughter. It was a shedding of insecurities, and letting go of blame. It was ownership of my CHOICES. A rediscovery of self-love and personal power. It was me becoming more vulnerable and open to all I wanted.
I posted the personal ad on a real dating site but quickly realized it wasn’t meant to be there. My spirit knew that this was meant to be an energetic thing, and I was still molding so much of me, so I pulled the ad and tucked it away.
And continued with my ah-ha moments and self realizations.
I see how the people around me are reflections of who I am in any moment. More than ever before, I am aware of how open or closed I am to what I want.
It’s been a little over a year that I have been involved with a pretty wonderful man. Our relationship blossomed so naturally and with such ease. It continues to grow in intensity. I’m so very happy with him, with myself, and with life.
In late March we spent the weekend at the Jersey shore. Definitely NOT the season for swimming, yet beautiful to take a walk along the beach. As we got to the water’s edge, he removed his shoes and said, ” My daughters said that we have to put our feet in, it doesn’t matter if the water is too cold, it is a tradition!”
So as we felt the sting of the icy water and our feet went numb, it occurred to me…
Here is THAT guy who is willing to jump into the ocean with me even if it’s too cold! My personal ad popped into my mind, answered three years later! I hoped I could find it.
So I searched my archives for it, and share it here with you with an awareness of how much I have changed since I wrote it, and yet how much I have stayed the same. As I re-read it I make little mental personal checks off the list and smile.
Alignment of energy and your desires is a damn powerful thing.
With Love and Fireworks.